I suffer from a skin condition called Vitiligo, which turns patches of my skin white. I have white skin patches on my knees, my feet, hands, lips and other hidden spots which not even the sunlight has touched.
People tell me beautiful, and I am narcissistic enough to know it´s true. Sadly, for the last few months, the white skin patches have been growing, and my self-esteem has been shrinking. I feel as if I was a mature woman watching her age crack and wrinkle her face, I watch my own face as it slowly turns pale, almost white.
I used to not care, as a matter of fact I often think of my patches as my unique accessory, but now they are on more personal space and I am starting to worry that no human will ever feel attracted to a bi colored person. Sometimes, I even think of myself as disgusting, but not that often since like I said before, I am fabulously beautiful.
To point out, I have seen people with vitiligo get marry and have a happy life, the only thing that is, they are heterosexual. We all know that in a perfect world I will find my prince charming, but in reality I may or may not be destroy by the criticism of my own community where beauty is a must have to survive.
I worry that the white patches will bury the beauty that is my brown face, and that my dalmatian face will scare off my prince charming. I have to constantly remind myself that I am an independent being and I am loved by many people, but still I´m scare. Deep inside it still scares me.