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don’t get mad at me but like i just realized this today. Its weird looking back on my life and realizing that I’ve dated like 3 black people in my whole life and probably had sex with 5 and every last single one of them was mixed and light skinned. Now let me put that in perspective for you I started dating when I was 12 and from 12 - 20 I have probably clocked over 30 relationships maybe 40 relationships (i lost count) and had safe-sex with lots of fucking people… I am a slut and I am okay with that, I like sex a fucking lot. My sex drive has always been stuck in overdrive. 

Lets say a good 70% of both relationships and sex things were with white people and the rest with asian and hispanic girls. I have a strong preference for light skinned people with blonde hair and light colored eyes (blue, green, gray, hazel) , asian, and hispanic girls (also i should probably add I am queer/bisexual). I never really thought about it but I just don’t seem to be able to put dark skinned people on a level in my mind where I even think of them as potential romantic partners. I have never dated or fucked a person that is darker than me.

I do find dark skinned people extremely attractive but like it stops there and I don’t know if its me growing up around a lot of people that were lighter than me, my family always saying that I was “white” acting that I wasn’t black enough, that me talking like an educated human being was me sounding like I was white, that me wanting to dedicate my life to art and suffering from major depression, anxiety, ADD, and PTSD are things only white people do/deal with.  All the dark skinned people in my family liked to torture me about all the “white” things I did… and I feel like I made a disconnection very early with my people. 

From very early I didn’t want to be around dark skinned people… my family proved I had nothing in common with them. I never felt comfortable around large groups of dark skinned people and it carried into my dating and sex life without me noticing. I just wish I could work out this mental block, but how the hell do you work through something so ingrained in your brain to the point that it took you 8 years to notice. Like I know not all dark skinned peeps are like my family and up until I came on tumblr I was completely ashamed of being me ( A black, queer, transgender, artist, who fucking loves metal and screamo, and who suffers from psychological and behavioral disorders) and tumblr helped that connection between me and my people start to reappear because I now know all these peeps who are like me. Working on this disconnection and trying to reconnect is like my mission going forward. My communities are all important to me and I feel like until I can fully fix this ingrained thing I got going against my own people I can’t be the best activist and artist that I know I can be. 


what images represent feminism and dating for you?



So, imagine you have the coolest thing ever.

A magical bag that holds an infinite amount of cookies.

And you want nothing more than to share the contents of this bag with lots of people that you like.

And then when you go to offer it to someone they’re like “Wah…didn’t you just share your cookies with Jim?”

And you’re like “Yeah, but I got all these cookies here still! And I want to share with you! There’s enough for everyone.”

And he’s like “I don’t know, I think I’d get too jealous seeing you share your cookies with everyone else.”

Even though you have an infinite amount of cookies.

You can give him all the cookies he wants, and give Jim all the cookies he wants too.

And it’s really frustrating when people don’t want your cookies, just because they want Jim’s cookies too. Or Jim to just not get any cookies. Even though Jim, Sally, and Joe can all have cookies, and there still be no less cookies in the bag.



I’m generally a lot more comfortable with folks online than in person. And in person, well, I can get along with folks I’m interested in just fine I guess, but making a leap to investigating romantic possibilities doesn’t come easily (the only times it ever has, it has been because we’ve been friends for a long time first). I’d really (really) love to have immediate physical chemistry with someone and have that translate into exploring relationship possibilities, but it hasn’t happened yet.

So when I’m actively looking for new partners (as opposed to just seeing if something eventually comes along), I turn to dating websites.

Of which, OKCupid is the only one I’ve found that is worth a damn for one simple reason: Match questions like “Would you consider dating someone in an open relationship?” Not quite exactly the question I’d ask, but it is close enough. I’m sure there are other websites that do familiarly  and even some poly-specific sites, but I’m in a small-medium sized city in Canada, so I need a site with a big membership base to see more than two people. So OKCupid is pretty nice, though I do wish more folk were on it.

Anywhere else, I run into a problem that is pretty familiar in person too - “Hey, this person seems cool, we might be compatible, but they haven’t specifically mentioned polyamory, so how are they going to take it if I’m like ‘I have a girlfriend but I’m interested in you, too’?”

Frankly, I feel like I’m being a creeper if I express interest in someone who hasn’t specifically and explicitly said they’re interested in polyamory. This is kind of a problem, because I figure a large number of the folks out there - especially liberal 20 and 30-somethings - might not have heard of polyamory, but would be interested in exploring it if they had. But I feel like I’m overriding their preferences if I approach them, knowing they’re probably defaulting to monogamy when I am most definitely poly.

So I see lots of people I maybe, might be compatible with on other sites, but pretty much don’t talk to the vast majority of them unless they happen to explicitly mention poly. This seems pretty limited compared to what I see happening with poly people I know who mostly meet new possibilities in real life - half the time someone approaches them, maybe with the idea of hooking up on their minds, and then they get poly explained to them. It seems a lot easier to explain poly to someone already interested than to do so before you’ve even gotten past their first contact filters, suffice it to say. Meeting someone on a dating website re-orders how the whole ‘getting to know someone’ social process works in a way that isn’t entirely advantageous.

Anyway though, if you haven’t already (and I suspect you have if you’re into the dating website thing and poly), check out OKCupid (and maybe FetLife, but it isn’t really a dating website and if you treat it like such, you’ll be disappointed). And, y’know, if you have any suggestions to add for other sites, feel free to mention them!



Recently, my romantic interested accused me of throwing my Ph.D. in his face. Most Black women with Ph.D.’s will know exactly how egregious an accusation that is, especially since we are hypersensitive and overly vigilant about making sure never to “throw our degrees” in the face of less-accomplished potential boos or family members.

During a casual phone convo about our respective college experiences, Dude who is a high school math teacher and has a couple of advanced degrees in math fields remarked to me that he found most humanities/ social science majors, including English and Political Science—my undergrad majors—“illegitimate.” Now given that all of my degrees are in humanities fields, I was majorly incensed.

And although I’m tired of  used to –and normally unphased by– these inanely conceived verbal jousting matches that dudes engage highly educated women in in order to see if we are really as smart as our degrees seem to indicate, this time I was pissed.

It’s college administrators and other knuckleheads who think like him that make my job so hard in the first place. Thinking like this explains, partially anyway, why my students can’t write for shit and why my salary is a comically paltry percentage of the amount of student loans I owe.

When I questioned his logic, he got defensive. When I further exposed the flaws in his arguments (skills courtesy of my humanities education), he explained that he would not “back down,” or “give in” even though he could admit that his opinion “wasn’t well thought out,” because he knew that this is what I was used to men doing…”backing down to stroke my ego.” Projection, anyone?

What I’m actually used to men doing is attacking me once they start intellectual fights they can’t finish. I’m used to men putting me in the friend zone because they find my smarts intriguing but not sexy. I’m used to men straight up belittling and insulting me—calling me stupid, unattractive, or using “feminist” like an expletive—in order to get the upper hand when they feel intellectually outmatched.

via Jordy

This is a really excellent article. I strongly recommend clicking through and reading the whole thing.

(via note-a-bear)

(From Feminisnt)

I was feeling angsty and sad one night over the weekend, ranting to New Boy about my issues with Old Boys.  Poor sweet New Boy, he listens so patiently, even though he’s no doubt sick of hearing me bitch about this topic.

Like every other sex worker - whether they’ll talk about it openly or not - some of the people I’ve dated/fucked have treated me un-awesomely, to one degree or another, due to my occupation.  Earlier this year, I was involved with two men who had argued that it could screw up their careers if it was found out that they were linked to the likes of me - as though I’m some kind of wanted Taliban operative who plays target practice with babies in my spare time.  I think both of these guys were just using the work excuse as a bullshit cover for not have to deal with the risk of personal embarrassment over sleeping with a girl who takes her clothes off for money.  (This sort of issue is not confined solely to sex workers; see Violet Blue blogging about her similar experiences as a sex writer here.)

I recently posted a half-serious ever-so-web-2.0 relationship/friendship definition on Twitter: “It only exists if it’s on the internet and indexable.”  This year, I’ve gotten increasingly stubborn about the idea that I am done hooking up with anyone who makes a show out of the importance keeping things off-the-grid.

Part of me wants to declare that we sex workers should all stand up for ourselves and our dignity and stage a big boycott of dating/fucking people for free who are too cowardly to associate with sex workers outside of the bedroom. But, I realize that’s impractical for a lot of sex workers (such as the ones who are still in the closet themselves), and I’ll probably break my boycott someday anyway, since I’m lousy at dogmatism.  But still - imagine if more sex workers did make that decision right now and stopped enabling people to reap the rewards of sleeping with sexually skilled partners, while refusing to “give back” by being our most intimate of allies.  A partner who exhibits behaviors to let you know they are ashamed of you is inflicting a form of emotional abuse, plain and simple.

I’m a fairly public person who lives on the internet and blogs and Twitter.  I am not saying I have no sense of privacy or discretion when it comes to my personal life and the wishes of my partners, but that’s a whole different matter than being curtly confronted about how I am not allowed to tell people that we’ve slept together.

The guy I refer to as Mr Personal Assistant had his employee relate to me that “his career is just too important right now”, and that “with the media all over him”, he just couldn’t be linked to a sex worker.  I wanted to scream at him - had he had the nerve to actually tell me this himself - “Who the hell do you think you are?  One article about you in Wired Magazine does not mean the media is ‘all over you’ like an insatiable swarm of tabloid paparazzi, eager to catch you in a headline-making sex scandal.”  (For those of you know know who I’m talking about, you are no doubt laughing hysterically right now.)

While not a single photo ever existed of that asshole and I - whether on our iPhones or the cover of Us Weekly - it’s a different story with the long-term ex.  He wasn’t a legendary douchebag like the other guy, but his more subtle behaviors still chipped away at me.  We both love photography, and took plenty of photos of each other.  When we went on vacation, for example, there were many “us in front of this thing” touristy images, candid glimpses we’d catch of each other, or just photos of us making silly faces at each other when we were bored.  I knew, without needing reminding, that photos like these were not pieces of my life that I could upload to my Flickr account.

Being a sex worker has meant knowing exactly how many times I’ve appeared in publicly-viewable photos with a person I’ve dated/fucked. And that answer is often “zero”.

With the long-term ex, the one with a camera ever-present around his neck, I know where all six of his photos of me are.  Two are at a conference, two are at a large party, and two are from our vacation.  All of these photos imply that I’m just some person who happened to be in the same place, perhaps a casual acquaintance, or the back of the head of a tourist who obtusely wandered into the frame of his perfect shot.  Never, ever, is there a photo of us together, and gods forbid, certainly not a photo that implies we were “involved”.  If you’re someone who knew us, and looked at his prolific photo-taking, I would think it actually stands out that he has oodles of photos of all of his friends, including other women he’s been involved with, except for me.  That still stings.  (It reminds me of the scene in The Village where one character informs another that he knows a certain man is very attracted to her.  She asks him how he could be so certain of that.  The answer?  ”Because he never touches you”.)

This summer, I’ve been trying to up my game on my “scare ‘em away plan" of sorting new potential mates.  This weekend, I disclosed to New Boy that I had been testing him a bit.  When we met, I liked him right away, so I immediately set about trying to seduce him - and, of course, see if he was going to be scared away.

On the first night we were getting to know each other, a friend took a photo of us together at a club, which I found in her Flickr stream.  Throughout the coming weeks, I kept at it.  I not only stood next to him in photos, I put my arm around him!  I exhibited body language that suggested sexual attraction!  And, New Boy passed this simple-but-vital test of mine with flying colors.  He uploaded these photos alongside all his other photos, like there was something totally unremarkable and non-shameful that his friends, family, and coworkers would be able to see us together.  This sounds trivial to civilians, but after my last year of problematic mating, it makes me feel stupidly warm and fuzzy.  No one knows if or where things will progress with New Boy, but he’s certainly set the bar high for everyone who comes next, just by being sane and normal towards me, rather than acting like he’s an evangelical preacher cheating on his wife and I’m an underage gay hustler.

After the end of the conversation wherein I revealed my photo test to New Boy, I was curling up in bed, and texted him my closing thoughts for the night: “Thank you for treating me the way I think I deserve to be treated.”

And thanks to all the other slut-lovers and ho-lovers out there for simply acting like we areregular human beings, not plague-infected, career-ruining embarrassments.  You all rule.